How do you know?

I’ve played WoW now for over eight years, and I’ve never un-subbed. There may have been a day or two on occasion if my payment method ran out before I remembered to refill, but that’s it. No breaks for eight years. And I’m starting to feel it.

Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against the game, I still think it’s a good one. But right now, I don’t feel like playing it. I log on, look around, and log out again. Twice a week I still show up for the guild’s raids, but I’m not enjoying them. The opposite may even be true. I sometimes feel disappointed when the raid isn’t cancelled due to low sign-ups. Which I realise is very selfish of me, since other people in the guild still want to raid.

Which is why I’m still there, I think. Being one of our two main tanks, it’s not an easy job to just quit. I’d feel too much like I was letting everyone down. At the same time I’m finding no joy in raiding.

We’re at a point where I don’t quite feel like we have a reason to raid in the first place. Being a casual guild we have no real plans of doing heroic modes other than the few easier ones (of which we’ve done a couple so far). On normal mode everyone pretty much has every piece of gear they need. We disenchant almost everything that drops. Some of our guild members want to do heroic modes, but to be absolutely honest… I have no interest in them. There was a time when I probably was, but my love for raiding is completely gone for the time being.

So, why are we still raiding?

I guess some are still chasing the dream of heroic modes. One or two might still need an illusive piece of gear. And some might be doing it just for the sake of doing something together. Some time ago, I may have agreed with some of these reasons, but I just can’t find the will in me anymore. I feel miserable the entire duration of every raid, and I feel guilty about feeling so miserable. I don’t want to ruin anyone else’s fun.

There’s talk about having a raid summer break, and I’m considering not coming back after. If nothing else, it’d give the guild time to find another tank during those weeks of no raids.

I wonder if not raiding will bring my joy for the game back. Or if I just need a longer break from all of it, maybe until the expansion hits. I have no idea. How do you know if you should stop or continue? I’ve been feeling like this for a very long time, but I’ve battled through it. Kept showing up for raids, kept doing my best during them. All the while wishing I was somewhere else, doing anything else.

How do you know?

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10 Responses to How do you know?

  1. Elkagorasa says:

    Play the game because it’s fun. When the game turns to “WORK” and no longer fun, don’t feel obligated to play, so other people can have fun. That’s been my “casual” mentality since day one.

    I’ve recently loaded the addon OQueue. It allows raid leaders to post player requests “Running Flex 1 SOO – need all”. By doing so, they still get to have fun, and pull in non-guild players into fill key spots. So far, I haven’t committed to running a full raid (low iLevel gear, baby at home who wakes up at any moment), but I have ran a Heroic Scenario and a couple Celestial fights.

    • Saga says:

      Ah yes, we’ve done that a bit for flex raids (oQueue), and we’ve had a mixture of people come through it. Some good experiences and some bad :)

      We were a couple of people short for our Garrosh kill one week, and went through an inate amount of people before we got it done. Even if the people we got were sometimes geared incredibly well, they forgot (or ignored) to do the basic, vital things like interrupting the mind controlled people etc. That being said, I do think oQueue is a very good addon, and you can find really good people through it as well.

  2. Tania says:

    I quit when I started to feel that way about raiding and the game. I still love the game… I just don’t love playing it any longer.

  3. André says:

    Funny, I am actually disappointed when there is no raid, and we have a lot cancelled raids these days. But then, I am probably more interested in heroics.

    • Saga says:

      I think not being disappointed is probably the better response :) I wish that I was, like I used to be. Maybe if I have a break I will find the passion for raiding again.

      • Bruce Baugh says:

        Saga, everything you say here adds up in my mind to “time for a break”. Your fun level is at a point now where it’s all about providing a service for others, which suggests they ought to be paying you. :) Of course friendship and acquaintance don’t actually work that way.

        Yes, your leaving for now would create some hardship for others. But there’s also a wear and tear from playing with someone who simply isn’t having fun, and benefits that could come once they get someone for the spot who’s happy to play.

  4. Zoe says:

    Aww hun, I know the feeling well. I was forced to take a break as my MacBook died on me just after mop came out. But then a friend and several guildies donated bits of pc’s and I now am back!
    I went social, just a bit of lfr occasional flex and just achievement hunting. Oh and I levelled a priest and Druid too.
    But it didn’t do it for me, so now I’ve jumped back into raiding, just an as and when when my team needs a ranged/healer thing and I find it exhilarating learning and doing the heroics.
    I know you’re loyal to your friends, but if you’d like a change of pace, I have a group of friendly idiots who I know would love a new person to tease ;-)
    Hope you’re ok though!

    • Saga says:

      Thanks, sweetie, that’s so nice of you :) I think a bit of a break is all I need, or doing something else. Playing another realm might be a nice change of pace, even if just as a social. Maybe I should take you up on your offer. I do still get that free level 90 boost once I buy the expansion! Just have no idea what I would want to be *lol*

      That’s amazing that everyone helped you out and got you enough bits to put a new PC together! You obviously know some great people :)

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